Letter to my mom - JJ Landis
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Letter to my mom

 

Writer Shawn Smucker has a series on his blog called “Letters To Those We’ve Lost” where he features letters from guests. Some of the letters were so powerful and beautiful, I decided to write my own. Sometimes writing a few paragraphs takes me hours, but this letter took about 15 minutes to come out of me. I guess I was ready to say it!

 

Dear Mom,

 

The last time I spoke to you was from the phone in Jeff’s apartment. I loved hanging out there with him, my big brother. I called to tell you I was going to stay all night at Dad’s house.

 

You chose that night when I was twelve as the one you would take your own life.

 

I was not enough to live for. Do you realize how embarrassing and awkward it makes a kid’s life when she has been abandoned by her mom? I didn’t cry, didn’t grieve, for about eight years. When the tears eventually came, they were agonizing.

 

You weren’t there     (read the rest of this post at Shawn Smucker’s blog)

2 Comments
  • JJ Landis
    Posted at 07:33h, 07 February Reply

    God is good. Thanks Stephanie!

  • Stephanie
    Posted at 14:37h, 05 February Reply

    I too have won the life lottery! Thanks for being willing to share your journey with us. I too have walked a painful path, but would not change any part of it because it helped me to win that life lottery and know God’s unending love for me and all of us.
    God Bless!

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