real life Archives - JJ Landis
55
archive,category,category-real-life,category-55,ajax_fade,page_not_loaded,,qode-title-hidden,qode-content-sidebar-responsive,qode-theme-ver-10.1.1,wpb-js-composer js-comp-ver-5.4.5,vc_responsive
changes, future, living for real, marriage, real life / 08.08.2017

Life… why does it feel like everyone except me has it figured out? Every day I face some sort of existential crisis. Who am I? What are we all doing here? I don’t believe people with answers, unless they present these so-called answers to me in the humblest of ways, through learned experience.   I am job hunting right now because it’s finally time, after staying home with children for more than sixteen years and working part-time jobs, to earn the big bucks. When I was twenty-seven – after flailing...

beauty, changes, fear, future, kids, living for real, marriage, pain, parenting, real life / 04.08.2017

It's Friday night. All my kids are home with me. I am happy. My sixteen-year-old is on the couch drinking a smoothie and watching The Office. My eleven-year-old and I just made some baked oatmeal to eat in the morning. My fourteen-year-old son is in the shower washing bleach out of his hair. Against my better judgment, I helped him slather bleach on his hair. We may be shaving his head later tonight – if he ends up with a crispy, orange hairdo. My husband is in his...

balanced life, be present, freedom, kids, parenting, real life / 12.04.2017

  Hello. My name is JJ and I am a skimmer. I read newspaper headlines and captions. I flip through the Bible, rarely stopping to read more than a verse at a time. I read the first few entries of devotional books and then skim the rest. I bookmark professional articles but don’t return to them. I repeatedly make lists of who and what to pray for but rarely follow through in prayer.   My kids ask me questions and I don’t answer. I ask them questions and don’t remember what...

anxiety, balanced life, depression, living for real, real life, self care, writing life / 23.02.2017

  As a writer with anxiety and depression, my work days usually fall into one of two categories: Extremely productive with lots of happy checkmarks on my to-do list or completely void of anything worth mentioning. Rarely do I come to the end of a day and look back at it as being “okay” or “not bad.” I’m either on top of a mountain with hands raised in victory or in the corner of a dank dungeon rocking back and forth. Nothing is ever in the middle for me....

anxiety, balanced life, be present, beauty, living for real, perspective, real life / 06.12.2016

  The questions have stayed with on a loop in my brain since I first heard Rob Bell pose them on a podcast last week: Who are you? What are you doing here?   Some days, I wake up and begin pushing a boulder up a hill, only to have it crush me. Pervasive anxious thoughts of never being finished, caught up, or satisfied are in my head.   The particulars of life – grocery shopping, cooking, washing clothes, packing lunches, mopping the floor, planning for this, planning for that, checking children’s grades (that...