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anxiety, balanced life, depression, living for real, real life, self care, writing life / 23.02.2017

  As a writer with anxiety and depression, my work days usually fall into one of two categories: Extremely productive with lots of happy checkmarks on my to-do list or completely void of anything worth mentioning. Rarely do I come to the end of a day and look back at it as being “okay” or “not bad.” I’m either on top of a mountain with hands raised in victory or in the corner of a dank dungeon rocking back and forth. Nothing is ever in the middle for me....

anxiety, balanced life, be present, beauty, living for real, perspective, real life / 06.12.2016

  The questions have stayed with on a loop in my brain since I first heard Rob Bell pose them on a podcast last week: Who are you? What are you doing here?   Some days, I wake up and begin pushing a boulder up a hill, only to have it crush me. Pervasive anxious thoughts of never being finished, caught up, or satisfied are in my head.   The particulars of life – grocery shopping, cooking, washing clothes, packing lunches, mopping the floor, planning for this, planning for that, checking children’s grades (that...

adolescence, anxiety, beauty, courage, freedom, kids, love, make a difference, parenting, real life / 31.01.2016

[caption id="attachment_2800" align="aligncenter" width="486"] Photo by Marisa Albrecht[/caption]   Strumming starts and stops behind her closed door It’s a common sound Guitar chords Experimenting with sounds Lyrics follow Poetry Songwriting Digging masterpieces out of her stressed out, overworking teenage brain I don’t dare touch I soak in the artistry and accomplishment Songs are presented as precious gems Delicate Shining as they are At 15, she’s supposed to be full of angst. Confused and insecure. That’s what I was expecting anyway. She’s my first, so I have no idea what’s going on or what I’m doing. But, she’s completely confident in herself. She doesn’t wear...

anxiety, balanced life, contentment, living for real, silence / 14.01.2016

  What would you do if you had 37 hours of silence?   I had those hours at a Silent Sanctuary Retreat last weekend. I was asked to attend as a guest, to share with the group before the silence began.   When I told people I was going to a silent retreat, I got all kinds of looks and comments.   “You? Silent? Haha!” was one.   Some others (mostly from parents of young kids) were: “That sounds amazing.” “I am jealous.” “LUCKY!”   My favorite though was, “Why?”   Why, indeed! (My answer, "Ummm. I dunno.")   Since I had never participated...

anxiety, balanced life, bible, christmas, crying, death, depression, fear, freedom, God's light, life is good, living for real, pain, perspective, real life, suicide / 16.12.2015

  I had a tough day recently. I was tired and gloomy. I vacillated between anxiety over responsibilities and sadness over the passing of time and how futile it is to try to stop the clock. I wanted to crawl in bed and hide. I wanted to cry. I wanted to take a mental health day and escape life.   Having a personal history of depression and anxiety and a family history of suicide, I was determined to keep a straight head. I couldn’t wallow. I couldn’t let myself break...